The Dreadful Weight Issue

I'm no stranger to weight struggle. My entire life I've worried about it. I steadily gained in elementary school and when I was in 7th grade I reached my highest weight of 220 lbs! I was made fun of and called Shrek by many classmates. I cannot express to you the amount of times I came home crying and staring at myself in the mirror. I'd always wish to be someone else. My classmates would draw pictures of an obese stick figure and give it to me. I loathed myself. Throughout those years I developed an extreme social anxiety, as well. I didn't want anyone to look or talk to me. Middle school was a living hell. When I went for a two year stay in Mexico to do mission work, I lost 60 lbs and gained major confidence. I have to say all thanks to the heat, falling in love and the delicious organic food! However, when I came back to the U.S., I gained it all back. :( My weight has always fought me. I know how it feels to be so depressed you never want to get out of bed! I know the hatred towards skinny people with fast metabolisms! (Not really hatred but extreme jealously I should say)  I hate having to wear something not because I like it, but because it fits. I hate the stares because you are so big, not because you are breathtakingly beautiful. I hate when you want to try to fit in a small space between your friends but you know you won't fit. I hate having fat cheeks. Having an issue with weight is the PITS, my friends!!

Anyway, a month ago I decided it was now or never!  No more diets, just a lifestyle change. I've been exercising, watching proportions, drinking protein shakes and eating only organic foods. No fast food, grease or sweets have passed my lips!! WOO HOOO!! I can tell you, I really do feel fantastic. I've tried to stay away from the scale because in the past all it would do is depress me. I have been determining my weight by how I feel and what I see!


 I'd like to encourage all of you to do the same. If you're struggling with a weight issue just decide today to change the rest of your life. I know it's hard, so very hard to get motivated but next month you'll be wishing you had done it today. Find a friend who will join you, and change today for a better tomorrow!